The sun is shining on me as I type this and I can see in my reflection that I still have a double chin. Sigh. I just cleared two months on my journey and figured it was time for me to provide you with an update. When I set out on this trip armed with my blog url and Facebook page I knew that I was setting myself up for a big challenge. I sometimes question myself, wondering why I decided to be so public with my struggle to get healthy. To take something so very personal and difficult and share it was a conscious choice but still a difficult decision. The difficulties don’t stop there. I am still struggling to gain control of my eating and exercise habits, sometimes choosing to hit snooze instead of getting up to workout or make a healthy breakfast. I have been relying on energy bars and nuts when with a little more planning I could be eating a more clean green diet.
Another trip challenge can be the lonely moments. One would think that if you were taking months to travel alone that you would be prepared to be just that, alone, however I have struggled. Facebook is a wonderful thing, it lets me see what my friends and family are up to while I am gone but it also makes me sad that I am not with them. I have never been good at missing out on a party and it seems that EVERYTHING everyone is doing WITHOUT me is the party of the century. In addition to missing my friends and family I am also really missing my Mom. I have had a lot of time to think about her and the void that now resides in my heart. I know that all this time to think is important and is part of the journey but it is also difficult, there is a lot of processing going on and that can sometimes be uncomfortable.
I can’t provide you a thorough update without including the high points as well. In these two months I have seen over twenty different groups of friends as well as met a handful of cool people along the way. I have river rafted, bet on pigs, camped at a music festival, met up with my Dad, hiked the Canadian Rockies, walked Color Me Rad, rode the Montana version of “Ride the Ducks”, swam in Flathead Lake, met Lyle Lovett, went 4x4ing, celebrated the 110th Anniversary of Harley Davidson, went to a renaissance faire, took an architectural boat tour, drove fast (could have been faster) in a Porsche, threw pottery, had a dance party, toured a sculptors studio, visited many an art museum, dined at Notre Dame, watched a behind the scenes filming of a sports show, pretended to be a weather girl and dined at a friends restaurant. I know I am missing some high points but I will stop there so I don’t make you all envious. I am also eagerly looking forward to the upcoming activities to include a long stint in NYC!
When I reread what I have just written I am proud and I know that all of these things are part of the entire experience. I am not going to be too hard on myself, yes, I am losing weight slowly off the interstate but at least I am still losing. I am making good choices the majority of the time and putting myself back on track after the bad choices. I am finding that there is a lot more to this trip than just my physical health, and I am so thankful that I was able to unplug from the “real” world for a bit to explore. Thank you all for joining me on this journey and please don’t hesitate to reach out if you have something to say.