Update: The Long and Winding Road

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I have been living in New York City for the past month and a half and plan to be here several more weeks. I have always wondered what it would be like to live in New York, I know that several months doesn’t count as living but it has given me a good taste of big city life. I have been splitting my time between my friend Amanda’s in the East Village and my friend Emily’s in Chelsea. I feel so fortunate to have such amazing friends who have opened their home to me making this stopover doable.

So far this journey has had me traveling from place to place spending no more than three nights in one location. My stint in New York threw me into a bit of a spiral. I had free time unlike anything I have ever experienced. I could take a three hour walk around town, duck into a coffee shop and meet friends for dinner. I could walk around Farmer’s Markets with my friend Josh who is a Chef watching him purchase food for the menu he was preparing that night. I should have been enjoying every moment of this but I found myself feeling guilty and even a little depressed.

I haven’t not worked since my early years as a college student and this free time had me feeling a bit out of sorts. I was surrounded by people rushing about their daily lives, and I had no reason to rush. I decided it would be beneficial to me to work some while I was in town and signed up with a temporary agency. The first morning I was on call I was riddled with anxiety about going to work in this crazy busy city. My phone never rang. The next morning was much the same and it has turned out that my phone has never rang, I decided instead of continuing on this path of anxiety to just relish in this time, enjoy the slow pace as it will be gone before I know it.

I have spent much of my time enjoying this city and my friends who live here. I was slow to connect with trainers and have had little luck connecting to nutritionists, healthy eating bloggers and healthy chefs. I have some guilt that I haven’t lost much weight while here (down an additional 3 pounds) but am proud to say I haven’t gained any. I have tried all sorts of food but am trying to eat in moderation and with all the walking I am doing here I feel stronger and leaner every day.

This week I have four workouts in a row ranging from high intensity interval training to yoga to aqua Zumba. I am still committed to my journey and warming up to the idea that I need to embrace each iteration that there is, each location holds its own challenges and joys.

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A New York State of Mind

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I have always dreamed of living in a big city and this trip seemed like the perfect opportunity to get a taste. I will be in New York City from now until the beginning of December.

I have quickly learned some of the rules to big city living. The toughest for me has been to quit smiling at strangers on the street. I can’t help it, I am a friendly lady. It turns out that those smiles here are more of an invitation to interact than they are at home. I have successfully wiped the smile from my face but I didn’t throw it away because I am planning on smiling at strangers again after my departure.

I have had the opportunity to catch up with some amazing people with hopes to catch up with even more. Some of my favorite people live here and being in the same city as so many wonderful and supportive people has been very good for my soul.

Working out and healthy eating are still very much at the forefront of my mind, I am taking two separate fitness classes this week and will be excited to share my experiences with you. I am reaching out to various food and fitness professionals and hope to stack the deck with some amazing experiences and some more weight loss!

Chat soon!

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I saw a Banksy my first weekend here!

I saw a Banksy my first weekend here!

The road is…longer.

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The sun is shining on me as I type this and I can see in my reflection that I still have a double chin. Sigh. I just cleared two months on my journey and figured it was time for me to provide you with an update. When I set out on this trip armed with my blog url and Facebook page I knew that I was setting myself up for a big challenge. I sometimes question myself, wondering why I decided to be so public with my struggle to get healthy. To take something so very personal and difficult and share it was a conscious choice but still a difficult decision. The difficulties don’t stop there. I am still struggling to gain control of my eating and exercise habits, sometimes choosing to hit snooze instead of getting up to workout or make a healthy breakfast. I have been relying on energy bars and nuts when with a little more planning I could be eating a more clean green diet.

Another trip challenge can be the lonely moments. One would think that if you were taking months to travel alone that you would be prepared to be just that, alone, however I have struggled. Facebook is a wonderful thing, it lets me see what my friends and family are up to while I am gone but it also makes me sad that I am not with them. I have never been good at missing out on a party and it seems that EVERYTHING everyone is doing WITHOUT me is the party of the century. In addition to missing my friends and family I am also really missing my Mom. I have had a lot of time to think about her and the void that now resides in my heart. I know that all this time to think is important and is part of the journey but it is also difficult, there is a lot of processing going on and that can sometimes be uncomfortable.

I can’t provide you a thorough update without including the high points as well. In these two months I have seen over twenty different groups of friends as well as met a handful of cool people along the way. I have river rafted, bet on pigs, camped at a music festival, met up with my Dad, hiked the Canadian Rockies, walked Color Me Rad, rode the Montana version of “Ride the Ducks”, swam in Flathead Lake, met Lyle Lovett, went 4x4ing, celebrated the 110th Anniversary of Harley Davidson, went to a renaissance faire, took an architectural boat tour, drove fast (could have been faster) in a Porsche, threw pottery, had a dance party, toured a sculptors studio, visited many an art museum, dined at Notre Dame, watched a behind the scenes filming of a sports show, pretended to be a weather girl and dined at a friends restaurant. I know I am missing some high points but I will stop there so I don’t make you all envious. I am also eagerly looking forward to the upcoming activities to include a long stint in NYC!

When I reread what I have just written I am proud and I know that all of these things are part of the entire experience. I am not going to be too hard on myself, yes, I am losing weight slowly off the interstate but at least I am still losing. I am making good choices the majority of the time and putting myself back on track after the bad choices. I am finding that there is a lot more to this trip than just my physical health, and I am so thankful that I was able to unplug from the “real” world for a bit to explore. Thank you all for joining me on this journey and please don’t hesitate to reach out if you have something to say.

XOXO –

Sarah

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Image taken from: Roadtrippers

Image taken from: Roadtrippers